Friendship is fragile?

This is the first day i write my blog. Seriously say,i have been influenced by my frenz. At first, i thought this is a very boring activity as i have no extra time to do this... However, due to to much negative feeling appear within myself as there as many uncircumstances have occured in this reality. I start to realised that many are uncertain for the moment now. i thought that as long as everything i have tried my best, then should get what i want. But after many incidences occured after i came to subang...A lot of sad things but at the same time a lot of happiness too..One thing that i realised now is that frienship can sometimes out of control, even when you treat them true from your heart...haha, i should have realised it long time ago...First incidence:i trust "someone" but finally i get betray again and again...i have given her more than one chance but so sad is that she still keeps continue like that....can she hear that my heart is broken????I am so so so dissopointed to her....i shouldn't tell her everthing. i shouldn't have given her the 2nd chance when she did once to me..How come i m so stupid???however, i must thank her and appreciate wat she had done to me. I thank to this frens and i think i will remember that (i mean both the good things and the bad things as well). Second incidence: "i give you three minute, you return me back my container", he said. Is this an order? I seemed like been treated like an animal...I would like to say sorry to him coz i realy forget to wash his container, but if becoz of this small matter can make our frienship break, i would like to consider whether this is a frienship or not? Wat can i do...I still remember that he throw me back my money when i returned my money for photostat to him...i m doing this for his own good..but look back wat i get in return?i shouldn't have cared so much....But juz that no "good frens" in big cities...Truely speaking, i would llike to go back my own town coz it is hard to live in big cities...

Sometimes is hurt to say so as human need to progress........But it is true. I m feeling quite sad and down. however on the other hand, i m happy living in the hostel i m living now...Donno y since the happenings of being scolded badly, i started to realise that sometimes i juz need to adjust myself flexible a bit, not take everything so serious....when i think back wat i did in the last semester it is juz tortouring myself. At this moment, i m laughing at myself.... But i still believe that tomoro will be beter if i hope so ...........

Thanx to all that have been my teacher, every incidents, every human beings and every things..