Until one week before

Only I realised that 

Swimming actually helps in relaxing

I swam twice alone during last week 

At the swimming pool at my apartment

It was scary at first

Because there is nobody except me

Me 

Someone that do not really swim 

However, 

After did it for twice, 

I really love it

The feel to stay in the water

Not to think on anything 

Just stay in the water

Let my mind be blank

Let the water be the sponge to suck out all my tensions
And
Finally i managed to do breaststroke swimming
 Relieved !

Have been feeling so tense recently

The point is 

When i stressed up,

there is no way i can do well

I am not the one that can perform well under stressful condition

I tried to

Tried it very hard
to improve myself
Physically
Personalites
Studies

It just makes me more tired day after day
Because I know there is no way I can force myself to satisfy with myself at this moment
Tons of things to improve and work on

Now 

I was sitting in the library

*Sighing

For screwing up my french speaking test

It wasn't really bad

Perhaps I still can get a pass for it

Just that I really did make a lot of mistakes while speaking

Nonetheless,

What I want from this test is not just a pass

I know I am able to do a lot of better

But .....

*Sighing again

Really feel like jumping into the swimming pool to swim right now

But right now, 

It will be too cold for me to swim in this late evening

Feel like talking to someone

Who is that 'someone' at the first place?

Dong-No !!

&

Feel like EATING too~~

That mashmallow dark chocolate

Have been craving for it since last week

My instinct told me that i sure will be going to the city to bring them home soon

Very soon...